Dear Father in Heaven,
WOW! WOW! These past two days, Christmas Eve and Christmas day, were really something! At times I felt very connected to You and Your Son, Jesus. I felt the real meaning of Jesus being born and I loved that! I feel that I went from one end of the spectrum to the other. I was so inspired but I also had a dark side (maybe it was the dexxx) that I tried and tried to shake. I got into a disagreement with my husband and had a really difficult time pulling myself out of the strife. Oh, my dear God and Father, I really have a hard time with my husband. I feel like he sucks the joy right out of my life at times. This is such a challenge for me. Although I know that all challenges in life are an opportunity to grow, this challenge seems to interfere with my growth. I asked You to help me on Saturday and I heard You whisper to me to turn around and kiss him. I could not do it the very moment that You told me to, but shortly thereafter I did. It did bring a temporary peace to both of us which I am extremely grateful to You for. I was able to celebrate the rest of the day with a very peaceful heart! Thank You!
I was a bit worried about meeting with my family because my emotions are running high about this financial situation. I was not able to purchase anything for anyone this year and I was concerned about how that would make me feel while we were exchanging gifts. I did not want to be tearful during our time together and get all choked up feeling bad because of my situation. I asked for Your help in this and by Your Grace, I was fine. In fact, I had a more peaceful heart than ever before and just had a really good time. When I was leaving my mother's house, my sister handed me a small bag and told me that this wasn't from her but from my whole family and that we were to open it on Christmas morning. I was really thankful that I did not have to open it in front of everyone because I do not think I could have controlled my emotions. Upon arriving home, I opened the bag and there was one present for Dominic, one for Vincenzo, one for Leonard and one for me along with a decorated envelope. I put them under the tree for tomorrow.
On Christmas morning, the kids opened the few gifts they had. These gifts were purchased through the generosity of two of my sisters who gave me gift cards to two stores. Had it not been for them, I would not have had anything to give them. My children are strong in You, my God and were OK with us not being able to provide gifts for them. They knew that is was by the Grace of God working through people that they had gifts to open. We opened them as a family and were all extremely excited not just about the gifts, but the generosity of others toward us! It was awesome! I have a hard time really expressing how I felt! I wished that everyone could feel as blessed as I felt. Thank you so much, Heavenly Father, for giving me the opportunity to feel that! Through You this happened. Christmas is not about getting what you want but it is about seeing You in others. This is a testament that Jesus Christ, Your Son, is alive in well in many people even this long after His birth. We celebrate the gift of Jesus that You, our loving Father, gave us so that we may live our lives with Your forgiveness of our sins. Today is born to us a Savior, Jesus Christ.
Thank you God, our Father, for all your gifts that you pour out to me. Thank You for whatever it is that you did to give me the eyes to recognize your gifts and the ears to hear your voice!
Amen
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