Faith and Trust in the LORD

As I sit at my kitchen table, I feel a twinge of fear starting to wave over me.  I am trying to figure out how this money thing, or lack thereof, is going to work until next month on the tenth.  I am still not working because the woman I take care of is recooperating from a fall in a rehab center.  Nothing has yet to come my way and I am not seeing anything on the horizon.  I am trying to draw from these things that I know.  GOD can change any situation around even when it seems to the human mind there is no other way.  GOD is in charge of all that is UNSEEN.  Just because I can not see a way through this doesn't mean that my supernatural GOD can't either.  In fact, there is NOTHING that my supernatural GOD can not do!

It is times like this that I get upset about my apparent lack of faith.  I should know what I know because I know what I know and know that my LORD is in front of me, leading the way.  Why is this so hard for me to do?  The past and whatever happened in it is gone but why do I keep finding myself in this spot?  I am so sorry my dear GOD that I am not better at this.  Why do I fret because I can not see the way through this myself?  This situation is bigger than me but it is not bigger than my GOD!   Come on, right now I really need to let go and let GOD!  Lead me LORD, lead me LORD!  I will follow whatever path you lay for me.  I know you are going before me to make sure that I can make it through.  My life is in Your very capable hands.  The glorious hands of GOD are upon my life.  Thank you, dear Lord that your favor is upon me.  Please help me to stop sending out these negative vibes that accompany fear.  Help me change, my dear Lord and Savior.  This world can be a scary place when you have very little money but I do not want to be scared anymore.  I want to trust in YOU and know that YOU are in charge!  Please help me! 

Well, writing this certainly has helped some of the fear I was feeling subside.  Now I just need to hang on to this feeling.  I know that things are going to turn around for us because GOD is in charge!